spring came at summer time

Just about June and spring is finally showing up. Couldn't have come at a better time. I'm in the middle of a "I hate Oregon and I wanna move home but I can't cause I dont make enough money" rut. Happens just about every time I hang out with someone from home, then watch them go home while I'm stuck here. After 3 years you would think I would have put some roots down and made friends, but I can't seem to let go of "home". Anyway now that I have finished school, Kyla is starting preschool, and the sun in finally showing its face after a long 6 months things might start looking up for me. I am going for an amazing job, and hopefully we will be buying a house next spring. Kyla is growing up so fast. Shes a little fish with her swim lessons. Shes so good. She knows all her letters and how to write them, reading is the next step then she gets a dog (we made a deal with her). We've got a few vacations this summer.. Bend in a couple weeks, OC for a week in August, hopefully I can get a room on the coast for a night at some point. Maybe see the sea lion caves. In laws came from New Zealand last month, it was really awesome spending time with them, they just adore Kyla and it breaks my heart she doesn't get to be around them all the time. It is what it is though and we get to go to New Zealand every other year so thats pretty awesome! so ya.

Mt. Hood

dream within a dream

Last night i had these weird dreams, or one big dream, im not sure. But everything started out normal. I was laying in my bed, with my husband, aware or Kyla in the next room, I seemed to be awake. I heard Kyla playing in her room and i yelled out "you better go to sleep in there" and turns out i was dreaming, because I think i woke my self up actually screaming that out. So i fell back asleep and went back to the same dream, except my bed was in some sort or bank or financial institution, but at the time i thought it was normal and i was awake. Then something happened that made me realize it was a dream, and i wanted to wake up, so i did.. or so i thought, as time went on i realized i still was dreaming. Then i started to panic because i really wanted to wake up, i kept asking my husband to wake me up in my dream, but he was nonresponsive, and eventually disappeared. After "waking up" but not really waking up at least 3 times that i remember, i asked some woman (who appeared behind this counter at this bank where my bed ended up) why i couldnt wake up. She first tried to deny i was asleep, then told me i couldnt wake up cause i was in jail, or something like that. I finally woke myself up somehow and i had this really bad feeling that if i went back to sleep i might not be able to wake up again, but at the same time i was SOOO tired, so i did go back to sleep and that was the end of it, at least as i can remember.

Thought i would start recording my dreams, since sometimes they are so vivid and i almost always remember them. Since i dont use this blog for anything but photography might as well use it as a dream journal too. Interested to find out more about dreaming and meanings of dreams. Maybe someone will have some input?

Trillium Lake

Good 2 mile hike around the lake. Perfect temperature, and the water was so warm, too bad no one was prepared for swimming. Next time we will have swim suits and our tubes with us to float around on the lake. Can't wait to see it become ice and get covered in snow. What did you do this weekend??

Zoo day

Another day at Oregon Zoo with my boo bear.

Falls fall Washington

So pretty! I almost didn't make it, about half way there i got hot and lost Kyla and Simon and barfed behind a tree. After resting and Simon pushing me, I finally made it, and it was well worth it. So i guess im really out of shape...

Kyla the Photographer

Tennis ball













Grocery store clerk












Rainy day




















Kyla Capturing the moment of me driving in the pouring rain













and her feet














and her legos








and her dad on the computer














and me reading

Its her new favorite thing to do and it gives me time to relax for 15 minutes at a time. She goes around taking pictures of just about anything in sight from my phone, and sends every photo she takes to my online album. I found these today while paying my phone bill. Thought it was kind of cute to see what she sees. xxx

So i forgot again. I keep everyone updated through facebook anyway. Nothing new really. Spring here is beautiful but frustrating with the bipolar weather. Sunny and nice turns into hail storms in less than a minute. I'm attempting a garden on my small deck. So far, nothing but its only been about 2 weeks. Kyla is doing good. We are really just getting ready for the summer so we can get in the pool and spend time outdoors. Tomorrow we are going to these hot springs, supposedly its a nudist colony or sorts so im hoping we dont run into too many nudies. Been trying new recipes and working at the clubhouse here in my apartments. Told Simon i would move to New Zealand for a year to try it out after he becomes a US cititzen so thats always in the back of my mind. We have so much of this beautiful state we want to explore before we leave so we are really looking forward to the summer and road and camping trips. At the moment our passports are with the inlaws while they try and get Kyla New Zealand Citizenship but when we get them back we are going up to Vancouver, hopefully by then my friend will have had her second baby. Second babies for me still arent even a thought. I just went through so much tramatic events with Kylas birth i can't even fathom trying it again. Plus i blaim almost every health issue i have on that since its been 2 years and i still dont feel the same, and i suspect i never will. I made a new friend with a son around Kylas age so that has been fun but almost awkward. It's like i spend so much time alone that i don't really know how to act around people. I only just started getting comfortable with Tiff before she took off for Germany. So i guess from here on out ill try to remember to post photos and such of our adventures we are planning on. xxx

forgot i had this blog!

pumpkin patch
fire pit on our street
cheese
mt tabor
winter park
end of summer zoo trip with mom
corn maze
polar bear
fall into fall
beauty and the messy living room

Things have been cooling down here in Portland, its been high 50's to low 60's and raining off and on. Starting to get that cooped up feeling again. I got Ky a jungle gym to put in the living room since we cant go to the park that often anymore. She likes it alot, i don't. Its HUGE. Other than that we are planning our month long vacation in feb/march2010. California and New Zealand. Hoping to take Kyla to Disneyland and have a bbq for her birthday again at my dads. We will only have a few days in Ca so it would be cool to have everyone i wanna see come over and bring kyla presents! haha. Simons good, working alot and playing soccer. Kyla has a cold right now and with the flu scare i've been keeping her isolated till i can get all her vaccinations. Thats just me, over worrier. Shes getting quite tempermental and likes to get into anything she knows is naughty, and gets these horrible tones with me yelling at me and telling me "NO MOMMY ITS MINE" hitting pulling hair, ect.. terrible twos? i hope its just a stage. Sleeping has been hard, i dunno if its a mix of stuffy nose and teething but she thinks its play time between 230 and 430 am. I think maybe once i get her out to play and run around she will sleep better. Right now we are spending alot of time indoors. Its taking its toll on both of us. Ill post some photos. im off to put her to bed now.

my name is kyla i like to party

sommersault
fun with daddy
ni ni sun
hats
angel baby

been a while

first ice cream cone
weeee
nap time
mt scott park with baby addy
probably our last chance at the pool.
one quarter equals pure bliss at fred meyer
photobooth
happy valley park
oregon state fair petting zoo


Things have been pretty good. Calliou is on at the moment so i have a second to update. Shocking how big Kyla is getting, shes counting to ten, she likes to skip 5 and six sometimes. She knows most of her colors, has trouble with red, and some of her shapes. Shes a total copy cat and its so funny. She answers herself all the time. When she says thank you she follows it with your welcome. Or when she says "Im messy mommy" she follows it with "thats okay". The other day i caught her asking her monkey if he was hungry and if he wanted a sandwhich, and followed that with yes!!! We start gymnastics again in october. Her favorite. I'm doing okay. Looking forward to going home to cal to see friends. Hopefully ill make it for my brothers grad, and erins baby shower AND kylas 2nd birthday. All her buddies are down there whats a birthday without kenadee kincey damien vaugn and new addition lila. Plus ill be stoked to see everyone too and maybe actually have a night out. Totally craving greasy mexican food so ill post some new photos and go get some tacos. xo